A few years ago, I went through a particularly rough period where I feared my creative bones were beginning to atrophy. Something had trapped my artistic flow, leaving my soul unbearably parched. Dramatic… I know.. But that’s how I felt. I hadn’t written any songs in what had seemed like centuries.
It took most of my freshman year to realize that I wasn’t necessarily lacking inspiration, willingness, time, or diligence in my craft. The truth is, I couldn’t have written anything of substance even if I had ignored all other responsibilities and activities to focus on my music. It wouldn’t suffice to say I had fallen away from my passions or lost touch with my gifts. My thirst for those creative juices had gone unquenched because, ultimately, I had been distant from my Source.
Typically, when I struggle to find peace and joy or feel especially unfulfilled with my day-to-day routine–trapped in an unproductive cycle, taking up space without lending anything of real value to myself and those around me–it’s because I’ve neglected my soul care.
Let me explain the process… The Creator designs us and designates specific gifts/qualities/traits/talents that allow us to fulfill the purposes He desires for our lives. Still, we choose whether or not we employ those attributes to grow personally, physically, spiritually, financially, etc.; maximize our impact; empower others; and build a lasting legacy. The best way to know what we are to accomplish, how we should live, and whom we ought to reach, for instance, is to commune and converse with the Mastermind, himself–the One who graciously bestows the vision and the resources, in the first place. Without this connection, we’re lost.
I couldn’t write without direction, and I couldn’t receive instruction because I wasn’t listening. I had nothing to bear because I wasn’t replenishing my spirit with positivity, hope, love, healing…truth. God, my Source, is all of those things to me. I need to spend time reading the words He’s inspired, seeking His wisdom, asking Him questions, allowing stillness and letting Him break the silence. I need Him to remind me of all the ammo I’ve hidden in my heart for the mind battles that never cease. I need Him to expose my weaknesses, reveal His sovereignty, and restore my strength. My Source, alone, refills my once depleted cup to overflow with peace, joy, passion and purpose. Once this revelation sunk in, I was finally able to write Another Verse.
…and I can tell that I’ve been distant
and I’m yearning for your presence
sweet communion that we used to have
where I could tell you anything
and knew you wouldn’t laugh at me
you take me seriously
’cause I know my heart’s got issues
and you’re faithful enough to fix ’em
and in this dryness
I’m drinking everything but living water
please, fill me up
quench my thirst
give me another verse
and help me sing it right.
© Maya E. Hairston, 2013